Honesty. Sometimes that is a really hard thing.
I said I would be open and honest about my experiences on this road to health and wellness. It’s very difficult to come to terms with how I perceive myself and how I really am. Not that it would make much sense ordinarily but just looking at the pics I am posting brings it to a head for me. Over the last 12 weeks (this sounds better to me than three months), I have watched my progress in the mirror. I know that I am thinner than I was 12 weeks ago. The scale tells me so. My clothes fit better and I have even given some away that no longer fit, which is a great feeling. Nonetheless, I was definitely disappointed when I took the progress pics and then compared them to the beginning pics. I didn’t see as much progress as I felt I had made during this time. I am not posting this to get the rah-rah “cheer me ups” from you. I am just saying it like it is for me. I know I have made great strides, don’t get me wrong. It’s just how I perceive myself versus the reality of the situation. I am not discouraged in that I will abandon my goal, far from it. This makes me all the more determined to succeed.
A friend said to me today that what I have lost is equivalent to carrying around 4 gallons of water. Just try to carry around 4 gallons of water for any length of time. It ain’t easy. My energy level is much higher. The brain fog is lifting and my patience is much better these last few weeks. I haven’t had a migraine in over two months and the usual muscle flare-ups have not shown up in almost as long. I would say this is the REAL progress. I know that I shouldn’t gauge my progress by pictures alone when I think about all of the other positives that have come about in 12 weeks. Pictures are only one element of the whole experience.
But those pictures bring up a realization. I MUST start exercising!!! This is very hard for me. I have never been athletic or one who enjoys getting exercise. Not in my DNA. My family never encouraged or participated in exercise or athletics of any kind. I have to find the right fit for me. I need to find the type of exercise that I can enjoy because if it’s not fun, I ain’t gonna do it. I have exercised before (really, I have!) and I know that I do feel better when I get some exercise, but I am having trouble figuring out what I want to do. The weather is steadily getting colder and I do like to walk, but I don’t like to be cold when I walk. I know, making excuses here, but I’m all about the honesty so I am honestly saying I haven’t found anything so far I do like to do. That’s a lie. I do like the Wii Fit Plus. I have done that in the past. May try that again. Thinking about the C25K app and start running, but not sure about it. I have never liked running so I don’t know why I would suddenly like it now. Maybe I should wait another 30 pounds down and then try it. Maybe thinking interval training might work. I will have to check into that. They have Zumba in town two days a week now. Been thinking that over, but their space is small and I have heard they have been packing them in the room. Not really my idea of having a good time being packed like sardines into a room and being told to move and sweat and have people see me be totally uncoordinated.
Did I mention that I’m uncoordinated? Dance would have been a really good idea for me when I was younger, but the folks had other priorities ie. bills to pay.
So there you have it. Not happy with the pics, but not going to let it discourage me. Another notch in the motivation tool belt is all it is. I ran into a friend of mine at the store last night. She said I was looking great and I was carrying myself differently. I had to think on that a bit. I guess so. I am gaining confidence. Each step I take is another step toward my goals. Another friend said to me that if by seeing these pics and following my journey that I can help one person along the way take that first step so they can achieve their goals, encourage them along the way and make them feel they are not alone then it will all be worth it. How very true. I know that I cannot do this alone. I have an awesome support system of people who love me unconditionally and encourage me on a daily basis to be a better person in all ways. Thank you, minions. You know who you are!
My journey is your journey. We will walk together and be healthier & happier as a result.
Do we have a deal?
Take one step toward your goal today. It takes only one step to begin the journey.
Until next time, have a wonderful weekend!
~Gluten Free Gena